Hanging Fire by Audre Lorde

In Hanging Fire by Audre Lorde she writes how a fourteen year old thinks and the insecurities that they think about. In the girl that is the main person in the poem talks about her mom being behind closed doors, this could mean more than one idea. 1) That her mother doesn't really concern herself in her daughters life, 2)her mother is ill and can't provide fore her daughter the way she want to. After reading this poem through I couldn't understand why the author had named the poem Hanging Fire to better understand this I went on dictionary.com, and found that hanging fire means a firearm that has been pulled it's trigger, but is delayed in igniting. I couldn't understand why the author had related a fire arm to a teenager so I read through the poem again and found two possible reasons for this. The first possible answer would be that the girl is hesitant because of her mother, and the second is shes hinting on comiting suicide.
The patterns I found throughout this poem is the line at each of the stanzas saying "and momma's in the bedroom with the door closed" this could hint that the girls mother doesn't involve herself in the daughters life, and this affects how the girl feels about herself. The language is easily relatable because every teenager goes through these feelings, and large chinks of the stanzas are read in one sentence structure. In the second line of the first stanza personification is found by her "skin betrays" her or keeps breaking out in acne. the girl also come back to the thought of death many times in this poem, she is either planning on killing herself, becoming familiar with it, or is scared of becoming older or not getting to grow up. The girl is writing about everything that bothers her so someone would care since her mother doesn't seem to care and/ or is busy behind those closed doors. The poem also hints an important need of the parent figure providing for the child or teen with guidance or help whenever they are unsure thus the title Hanging Fire.